life is full of...

:a person who uses strength or power to harm or intimidate those who are weaker...

The definition of a bully.

I mean...what is perceived weakness? Is it to willingly succumb to another's bullshit just to squash the "situation"?
Is it actually a strength disguised as such so that the actual bully feels as if they've somehow won this whole trial?
In addition, what is perceived strength or power?
I am truly struggling with these concepts.

I can't answer any of this.

I can however say that my life is filled with this, so is Kannon's.
He deserves better. He deserves the benefit of the doubt always.
He is not the weaker human in any situation.
Why you ask...

He chose a life of challenges and indifference.
He chose the path less taken.

His courage and strength in his daily life is one that I couldn't find in any fairy tale, yet that is all he chooses to believe in.
His innate being is that of a true warrior.

One disguised in a shell of a boy that loves books, yet cannot read. That loves fairy tales, yet will never find his princess, and one that continues to pull the wool over his eyes yet he manages to see through every time.

In times like this I have to look to his heart for strength and guidance.
Mine is old, tired, and very confused.
I need his straight arrow of faith towards life.

Life is full of thieves. Full of questions and fears.
Full of bullshit.

I am grateful I have Kannon to guide me through it all.
Today Autism is a gift.
Today I will be grateful for all the past hurdles I have overcome, so that I may have the beautiful boy I do today.
Grateful for his strength and heart.

Today I am full.
Tomorrow may I be empty of it all.

peace.