Hope is the thing with feathers that perches in the soul
And sings the tune without the words, and never stops at all
And sweetest is the gale is heard; and sore must be the storm
That could abash the little bird
That kept so many warm...
~Emily Dickinson

Tuesday, April 2, 2013

"Happy" Autism Day, a love note to my boy

How do I translate pain into love?
How can so many years of pain translate into a beautiful experience?


You came into this world with it, and you will leave this world with it.
More importantly, what you have chosen to do with it is something that has changed my heart forever.

You have fought harder than anyone I know for yourself.
You never gave up, and through the struggle and tears you always chose to fight for yourself...you taught me how to fight for myself and my happiness.
I have never seen such a beautiful soul filled with so much love and kindness.
Thank you for showing a jaded self how to find the beauty in life.
You really do believe in happily ever after, in the magic of life...especially when I had given up on it.
You actually do stop to smell the roses and skip while you run...you helped me slow down and live.
You love all interaction with people no matter how brief it is...when usually in the past I would avoid most strangers, I now welcome the small talk.

The ways you have touched my heart and opened my mind are endless...you broke through to a very hurt, very confused soul that needed guidance and love.
You saved me in more ways I can communicate...ironic since I am supposed to be the one who can talk, you talk worlds more than I ever could...in your own language.

Through your energy, your light, and your presence in my life I have no choice but to be better.

I just don't know how to thank you.
So just as I have been trying for the past 9 years, I will continue to try to do better every day.
For you, and for the example you have already set in such a brief time...
I will continue to bring awareness of your life, your struggles, and more importantly your beauty that makes you amazing.
You get enough hardships out there in your playground of life.
I've seen you pushed off a playground, laughed at, get sand thrown at and dumped on, called retarded, stupid, weird...it's all too painful to keep writing, you deserve better.
Yet through it all you came out shining...you still believed in happily ever after.
Simply amazing.

If I didn't know better I would think you had already lived twenty lifetimes, and I was blessed to have you in this one.

So today, and every day I will "Light it up Blue", Red, Orange, Yellow, Green, Indigo and Violet...

Someday others will see your beautiful rainbow as I do.
I know you will keep singing your tune and teaching my soul...

thank you.

peace :)

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  1. Oh Kary! Oh Kannon! You just brought tears to my eyes and joy to my heart. :) xoxoxoxo