Hope is the thing with feathers that perches in the soul
And sings the tune without the words, and never stops at all
And sweetest is the gale is heard; and sore must be the storm
That could abash the little bird
That kept so many warm...
~Emily Dickinson

Friday, February 26, 2010



This is an article I wanted to share.

I always wondered if I had more money if raising a child with Autism would be "easier".
Meaning, I would be able to pay for any therapy services, hire a part time nanny to provide respite for myself, and heck maybe even a cleaning service just for my sanity.

I know I am not the only mother out there who does everything...
Cooking, cleaning, full time child watching, etc.
And who does it on a budget.
No extra money for clothes, restaurants or fun things...just enough to survive and comfortably survive.
It is obviously 3 jobs wrapped into one without the pay scale.

After reading about this incident that happened it set in how Autism truly requires a special group of people to deal with it.
This mother who had NO financial worries found the only way to deal with her Autistic son was to murder him. Murder him.
Feeding him an overdose of prescription meds, and watching him die.
Apparently now her lawyer is trying to take the insanity route...
OF COURSE she was insane...she was a mother of a child with Autism...it can do that to you.
BUT...you DO NOT turn yourself so upside down and inside out that you rationalize MURDER.
And apparently all the money in the world makes no difference in easing the responsibilities of raising a child with Autism...at least to some people.

This is beyond me.
This is beyond sad, tragic, or explainable.
This is why we need to raise awareness, understanding and support for this disorder.

This disorder is in obvious need of funding, but it goes beyond that.
It needs to not have stigmas or labels attached to it.
It has to be understood on a human level.
We need to embrace it and know that we are not alone in this...

We need people to turn to, or internal peace to go to when we feel overwhelmed.
We need to know it is all for a reason...bigger than us, but for a reason.

And until we find a "reason" we must share, support and love what we already have.
Accept it.
Find peace with it.

KNOW Autism and that it can be beautiful...we can raise these kids into loving, contributing members of family and society.


1 comment:

  1. This story saddens me.

    My travels down Autism Avenue haven't always been easy, but as I look over at my precious prince, I can't even fathom the thought of him no longer being part of my life. What's even more inconceivable is the thought of his absence being of my own doing.

    I'll weep for Jude... and his mother.